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My husband, David, and I had been trying to have a baby since November of 2007. After 'letting things happen', we got the amazing news that we were pregnant in June of 2008. Sadly, that pregnancy ended at 9 weeks with a natural miscarriage. After two more chemical pregnancies, we turned to fertility treatments in 2009. That decision was a disaster, with lousy medical care and poor monitoring. In December of 2009, we made the huge decision to move onto IVF. Things fell into place like magic and we began treatment on January 15, 2010. After a blighted ovum in March, we did a successful FET in June, only to endure another blighted ovum in July. We kept up and underwent another IVF in September/October of 2010 with the arrival of our son, Brogan in July of 2011! After our lovely success (finally) we decided to undertake yet another IVF treatment and hope for a sibling for our little red headed boy. Well... so far it's worked. Our story continues below!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Home Stretch!

I bought the Baby Bullet.  I made fun of it when it first went on television... but the more I watched the commercial the more I *had* to have it!  I pretty much detest processed food and can't see myself actually buying processed, canned baby food of any kind.  So it made sense.  I'm not a 'gadget' kind of girl, either, but can't justify using my awesome huge blender to make a tiny bit of baby food.  So yeah.. we got it at Canadian Tire today and it made me happy.

I haven't been happy every day lately.  I've been mixed up and pissed off at some things going on in my life and what's worse is that I don't know how right I am to feel that way.  If I'm not sure if what I am feeling is justified but it sure feels like it.  I'm not sure if some of what I'm feeling isn't a result of the pressure I'm under lately with work being so busy, the house being worked on and the pregnancy being officially super uncomfortable.  I don't know.  I just know it hurts and I'm tired of hurting about this particular thing.  Really tired of it.  I just want to walk away from it all and close the door on it.

I'm doing okay as long as I can manage to get some sleep.  Getting sleep means successfully sleeping in a semi-sitting up position throughout the night and not waking up with a mouthful of stomach content gagging me and burning my throat.  It's been like this since 26 weeks, so that's the last 10 weeks or so.

Walking is difficult.  The pain in my cervix becomes pretty sharp after a short distance and I soon find myself looking for places to sit down and rest.  I also get bouts of extreme exhaustion.  Bending over has pretty much become a thing of the past and the only way I can reach my feet is to prop my ass up against a wall and spread my legs so that I can somehow reach down to one foot at a time.  That's a great description of how I shaved my legs last week!

I know I'm on the homestretch.  I know it's just a matter of time now, and I know that I can do this and it's not nearly the hardest thing I've ever done.  It's just that this is the hardest thing I'm doing right now.  I'm in love with the baby and the movements and the hiccups and everything he's meaning to me.  Don't think for a moment that I regret a moment of this, that I am sorry we are doing it, or that I would change one twinge, one lousy night's sleep or one moment of pain.  It's just that these discomforts are real, and I want to record and acknowledge them.

Week Thirty Six: Baby may drop into the birth canal

You are 36 weeks pregnant. (fetal age 34 weeks)
  • The baby is about 19 inches (48 cm) long.
  • Weight is around 6 pounds (2.7 kg).
  • The baby's body is becoming chubby as fat layers build.
  • Between now and birth they may gain about an ounce (30g) a day
  • You may feel contractions of the womb, called Braxton Hicks contractions.
36 weeksWhile it says that your baby weighs six and a half pounds this week and measures 19 inches long, this is only an estimate. In general, babies are gaining half a pound (225 grams) per week now. Baby continues gaining weight as fat deposits and is forming creases in the neck and wrists.

You may feel contractions of the womb, called Braxton Hicks contractions, which can be used to perform and practice breathing exercises. You may be visiting your caregiver weekly up until the birth. Regular internal exams may begin, to see if your cervix has softened, thinned, dilated or if your baby's head is dropping into the pelvis. Any of these could be signs of impending labor but there are no guarantees and you could be waiting for weeks yet. Your baby is almost ready, a pair of kidneys and the liver has begun processing some waste products, the only organ still to mature is the lungs.

38 weeksThis week your baby may drop into the birth canal, this is called 'lightening' or 'dropping'. If this is not your first baby, this 'lightening' may not occur until right before labor. Your care provider may refer to it by saying that your baby is now 'engaged'. The majority of babies are now in the birth position, either head down (vertex) or butt down (breech), most will maintain this position until birth. Any movements that they make are more likely to be rolls from side to side.You may notice when this happens because it will suddenly become much easier for you to breathe. While breathing becomes easier, walking may be the exact opposite. If your baby has dropped you may find yourself visiting the bathroom much more often as baby is resting right on top of your bladder again.

Keep talking - by now he or she can recognize you voice, and may respond to any loud noises with a swift kick out.

The average twin birth occurs between 36 and 37 weeks and the babies weigh an average of 5 pounds apiece. A baby's average size is now 18.5 inches (47 cm) and 6 pounds (2700 g).


  1. Any day now!! I can't wait to hear about the birth of your son - I don't remember, have you said what you plan on naming him?

    The pelvic pain I had with my second child(started at week 30) was the worst when I tried to rollover in bed at night - sometimes I wanted to cry!! The good thing, as soon as he was born - the pain was gone!

    Good luck Sonja!

    Jill - WTE

  2. Thank you so much Jill!!

    We think we will name him Brogan John Wilson.... so far that's the leader in the name game. I'm feeling a lil' better these days, not sure why but I'm trying to enjoy the last few weeks with this baby safely as close to me as humanly possible...

  3. Good Luck with the birth honey, I can't believe he is nearly here. Seems like yesterday we were both still TTC, well I still am but you know what I mean lol

  4. Sonya, just checking in ... I know your due date is almost here. Thinking of you!!

  5. Anxiously waiting for a birth announcement! Hope everything is going well.

  6. Hiya Sonya, just checking on ya. How is everything going?