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Fort St John, BC, Canada
My husband, David, and I had been trying to have a baby since November of 2007. After 'letting things happen', we got the amazing news that we were pregnant in June of 2008. Sadly, that pregnancy ended at 9 weeks with a natural miscarriage. After two more chemical pregnancies, we turned to fertility treatments in 2009. That decision was a disaster, with lousy medical care and poor monitoring. In December of 2009, we made the huge decision to move onto IVF. Things fell into place like magic and we began treatment on January 15, 2010. After a blighted ovum in March, we did a successful FET in June, only to endure another blighted ovum in July. We kept up and underwent another IVF in September/October of 2010 with the arrival of our son, Brogan in July of 2011! After our lovely success (finally) we decided to undertake yet another IVF treatment and hope for a sibling for our little red headed boy. Well... so far it's worked. Our story continues below!

Monday, July 13, 2009

It's Happening Again

I am 7 DPO. The last two cycles I wasn't hopeful at all, no sore back, no emotional outbursts, nothing like that, and I wasn't surprised when AF showed on time.

But now, like the February and March miscarriage months, it's happening again.

And to be honest I am terrified. My back is hurting so bad I am on the verge of tears. I mean it really hurts. My breasts are sore and I am super over emotional. I cried three times yesterday, over nothing. I feel overwhelmed and exhausted. Either I am pregnant again or I have just pushed myself too hard for too long and this is the result.

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