~~Ultrasound Day~~

Today is the day I have been waiting for.  A real, honest ultrasound with a real, honest technician, and a real, honest hope of seeing a real, honest heartbeat.  Really!  Honest! 

I am completely at a loss as to what to expect.  I know the odds are really with me that we will see a heartbeat.  It is just fear and insecurity that is keeping my feet firmly planted on the ground.  Sometimes a little fear and insecurity is a wonderful thing.  It keeps you safe, prevents you from, say, touching a glowing hot burner while cooking, or tripping when sightseeing near a high cliff, or expecting to give birth as a result of being pregnant.

The sad and dangerous part of fear and insecurity is that you might lose your love of cooking, miss an amazing view from a high cliff, or be unable to enjoy being pregnant when you are.

Honestly, deep down I am feeling fairly confident about today.  I was worried about my lack of symptoms, but I've talked to so many women who had babies and didn't puke their guts out for three months... well.. maybe I am just lucky.  Maybe my emotional misery is making up for my physical comfort!  *laugh*

Anyhow, we leave in just over an hour.  The ultrasound is a town away, about a 45 minute drive, at 9 a.m.  David's work turned out that he was actually able to start the spring break-up early and he is thankfully, wonderfully home and will be sharing the moment with me.  I am so grateful for his being there to witness this experience.  No matter which way it goes, I'll need my amazing  husband there to share the emotion. 

~Butterflies~  Okay....   wish me luck!