I had a fear-fit this weekend. Just the reality of how close the ultimate answer is is freaking me out a bit. What if it's another blighted ovum? What if there's no heartbeat? What if there is? David and I talked about how 'comfortable' it is to be sad. How that's what we are used to and know how to handle after three years. Like a worn, useless glove that fits perfectly.
David and I talked about how positive we are this time, and I worried that we might be setting ourselves up for a bigger fall. I loved what he said, "I'd rather be happy for a few weeks and then really sad for two days than be worried the entire time and still be sad for two days."
Of course, I combatted my fear with some major attempts at finding medical information online. I found a great case study. I then kept on looking and found a very promising article that, among other things, stated this:
- Levels <300 mIU/mL, ongoing pregnancy rate was 9%
- Levels 300-600 mIU/mL, ongoing pregnancy rate was 50%
- Levels >600 mIU/mL, multiple pregnancy rate was 100%