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Fort St John, BC, Canada
My husband, David, and I had been trying to have a baby since November of 2007. After 'letting things happen', we got the amazing news that we were pregnant in June of 2008. Sadly, that pregnancy ended at 9 weeks with a natural miscarriage. After two more chemical pregnancies, we turned to fertility treatments in 2009. That decision was a disaster, with lousy medical care and poor monitoring. In December of 2009, we made the huge decision to move onto IVF. Things fell into place like magic and we began treatment on January 15, 2010. After a blighted ovum in March, we did a successful FET in June, only to endure another blighted ovum in July. We kept up and underwent another IVF in September/October of 2010 with the arrival of our son, Brogan in July of 2011! After our lovely success (finally) we decided to undertake yet another IVF treatment and hope for a sibling for our little red headed boy. Well... so far it's worked. Our story continues below!

Thursday, November 4, 2010


I had another beta.  I can't help but be secretly thrilled at how well things are going and a teeny bit scared it will all drop out from under us any moment.  I wanted to get another read on what's going on while David was here.  So we can enjoy the weekend.  So I can create an exercise wheel for my overactive mind to whirl away on while the time crawls by.  Something to wonder about, something to look forward to between now and my ultrasound.

If my numbers were 2826 on 21dpo then we're hoping for hmmm.... 5600ish? Wow.  I could get used to all this good news.

I had a scare this afternoon.  I called my doctor's office for the beta results and the nurse told me they were 2826.  I had previously gotten 2865 two days ago.  So I thought I my beta was falling and I was miscarrying.  My world kind of fell out from underneath me.  Slowly, but rapidly all at once.  I asked her to repeat the number.

"Hold on," she said, "oh, yes, that's right.  2826."

Then, "wait, hold it.  No, those numbers are from November 2nd."

Mygawd.  Okay, so I didn't write them down properly when I got them the first time.  So they are not falling.  Geez.  Talk about being thankful.

Tomorrow I'll get the results around 10a.m.  I'm so hopeful!!

I am not having much in the way of symptoms.  I am exceptionally confrontational. I have short but sever bouts of nausea (might be partially because of the progesterone).  My breasts are sensitive, I have some mild backaches and still some RLP, although that's eased up lately.

Please send out good thoughts for us.  For strength to get through the next two weeks, regardless of the outcome. For the grace and dignity to handle whatever happens.  For my husband, who is the strongest man I have ever met, but who falls to his knees when faced with losing yet another possible chance at becoming a father.  

It's going to be great.  I am enjoying the lack of symptoms.  I remember how sick I was with both my boys.  How I actually wished to NOT be pregnant if I could just stop throwing up. *laugh*  ah... those were the days!


  1. *sending good thoughts* hope it went well!

  2. Sonya! I've been following your journey from the beginning (and the beginning of this cycle) and I'm so thrilled at this positive news! Cant wait to hear more!!