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My husband, David, and I had been trying to have a baby since November of 2007. After 'letting things happen', we got the amazing news that we were pregnant in June of 2008. Sadly, that pregnancy ended at 9 weeks with a natural miscarriage. After two more chemical pregnancies, we turned to fertility treatments in 2009. That decision was a disaster, with lousy medical care and poor monitoring. In December of 2009, we made the huge decision to move onto IVF. Things fell into place like magic and we began treatment on January 15, 2010. After a blighted ovum in March, we did a successful FET in June, only to endure another blighted ovum in July. We kept up and underwent another IVF in September/October of 2010 with the arrival of our son, Brogan in July of 2011! After our lovely success (finally) we decided to undertake yet another IVF treatment and hope for a sibling for our little red headed boy. Well... so far it's worked. Our story continues below!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Heartbeat!!

A beautiful tiny white flicker... like a blinking star.  I could have stared at the ultrasound forever.   The baby... I can say that now... the baby had a heartbeat of 139, and measured two days bigger than the 7w1d that he actually is.

To say that we were nervous is an understatement.  How many times had we been that far.  We sat in the parking lot enjoying the last few moments of hope before heading to the lab. Against protocol, they allowed David in the room for the entire exam.   I couldn't see the screen.  David could, but he didn't know what he was looking at... except afterwards he said that he knew what an empty sac looked like, and this sac wasn't empty.  He didn't want to say anything because he didn't know if everything was okay.

Quietly the tech did her measuring and then she whispered, "There's a heartbeat."

I think I asked her to repeat herself at least three times.


We are in shock.  We're so used to mourning and finding strength to move on at this point that this is totally new territory.  We don't know what to think, what to do next, or how to handle this.  

David was freaked out when he realized I was almost two months pregnant already.  He kind of thought that the heartbeat was the starting point... and when I said we only have seven more months to go he was taken aback.  

Our first trimester ends on December 20th, I believe.  I'll be happy when that day is gone; for now I am just thrilled that our chances for a healthy birth have just skyrocketed!!!


21 comments:

  1. Congrats this is fabulous news! I hope the seven months fly by and you are holding your baby before you know it!

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  2. YAY!!!!!!!!! I have been checking all day! I am thrilled for you! What a beautiful baby!

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  3. OMG....I just had a feeling this was finally it for you!!!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!! Two months down, seven more months to go!! YAY!!! I can't wait to follow you through this journey as you enjoy the next amazing chapter in your life. I've been praying for you and David. I know what it feels like to F-I-N-A-L-L-Y achieve success after being in the land of fertility for so long. It is hard to believe at first because you are in such complete shock. But, once the news finally sets in and the reality sinks in...there is nothing better! CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!! =)
    Michelle

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  4. I am so, so! HAPPY for you guys. ^_^

    -J

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  5. I already told you on FB, but YAY! I am so incrediblty happy for you! I was trying to tell DH and I started crying. I can't wait to follow your journey!

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  6. Woohoo I knew it! LOL Congrat's on the beautiful baby and great heartbeat! Can't wait to follow your journey!

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  7. CONGRATULATIONS SONYA!!! You did it!! I thought of you guys all day long. David must be so excited! Take it easy over the busy holidays, and most of all...enjoy every minute of this long awaited, but well worth it journey. I love the pic! Are you still on your progesterone supplements? I used Prometrium and the vag. inserts for the first trimester. I can't help but truly believe they helped us keep our baby. Best wishes, and I'll be stalking your blog for updates! :) BIG HAPPY HUGS now!! :)

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  8. Sonya, I have followed your blog as a "lurker" with anxious anticipation for you. I am also a mother of 2 and have been through 3 losses in the last 18 monthes and still trying to acheive a successful pregnancy with my dh. (who has no kids)I am so thrilled for you. Enjoy this journey everyday...you sooo deserve it.

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  9. this is fantastic news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i know your emotions, sonya!!! enjoy this pregnancy--- the next 7 months will fly by and the next thing you know, you'll be meeting your "little engine who could"! sooooooooooooooooooo happy for you!!! this IS your time for sure!

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  10. Congratulations!!! Beautiful, wonderful news. I stumbled onto your blog awhile ago and have followed your story. All the best to you and your husband.

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  11. Yes!! Congrats Sonja!!!! I am so happy go hear all went well! Keep these updates coming. When is your next appointment?? And what a nice holiday gift, to enter the 2nd trimester!!

    Jill

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  12. This is the best news in the whole world. What a happy, happy day. I'm thrilled for you. I've continued to follow your story after we met on the March 2011 WTE board. Can't wait to hear about all of your adventures with this HEALTHY pregnancy!!
    Andie (aka triathleteandie)

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  13. Sonya I am so happy I cried!! It is amazing to see the women I started this journey with long ago getting their wishes granted and prayers answered. I wish you the healthiest and happiest 9 months imaginable. I can't wait to see your little one in your arms!

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  14. Congratulations Sonya!!!

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  15. I havent been around but I'm truly so happy for you guys, you so deserve it! Best wishes for a healthy and happy 9 months that end in a beautiful baby!

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  16. Sandie (startingourfam09)November 18, 2010 at 7:11 PM

    Completely overjoyed for you!!!!!!!!!

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  17. Congratulations! I believe that when you keep knocking on that door, eventually it WILL open. It sure did for you guys! I can't wait to follow you through this amazing experience! So happy for you!
    Emily

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  18. I am soooo happy for you!!!! YEAH!!!!!

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  19. What a WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING picture you have posted. I am crying for you. Congratulations I know you are on cloud nine!!!

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  20. Sonya, my heart soared when I saw on FB 1x139, I am so wonderfully excited and happy for you and David. CONGRATS Momma, you so deserve it!
    Jenelle

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  21. CONGRATULATIONS SONYA!!! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND DAVID! I KNOW THE ANXIETY OF WAITING IT OUT THROUGH THE 1ST TRIMESTER. AS THE DAYS PASS, YOU'LL FIND THAT ANXIETY DISSAPATING. CANT WAIT TO FOLLOW YOU ALONG ON THIS JOURNEY!

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