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Fort St John, BC, Canada
My husband, David, and I had been trying to have a baby since November of 2007. After 'letting things happen', we got the amazing news that we were pregnant in June of 2008. Sadly, that pregnancy ended at 9 weeks with a natural miscarriage. After two more chemical pregnancies, we turned to fertility treatments in 2009. That decision was a disaster, with lousy medical care and poor monitoring. In December of 2009, we made the huge decision to move onto IVF. Things fell into place like magic and we began treatment on January 15, 2010. After a blighted ovum in March, we did a successful FET in June, only to endure another blighted ovum in July. We kept up and underwent another IVF in September/October of 2010 with the arrival of our son, Brogan in July of 2011! After our lovely success (finally) we decided to undertake yet another IVF treatment and hope for a sibling for our little red headed boy. Well... so far it's worked. Our story continues below!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

While Waiting...

I've been eating better.  I've been taking my vitamins.  I've been drinking way more water than ever.  I've switched mainly to whole grain bread versus white.  I've been successfully avoiding Pepsi, my only true addiction.  I've even stopped my 2x a week beer and clam habit.  And today I actually took the day off work and went skiing. 

I have gained weight since starting the meds.  Nearly 20 lbs in a year, and there's just no reason for me to make things worse with unhealthy eating habits.  And my store is in a mall, so our lunchtime choices are Panago Pizza, New York Fries, Tim Horton's Donuts, Chinese take-out and Orange Julius.  Notice there are no pita pits or subways nearby.  Gag.  So I've been getting up earlier, cooking soups and stews and chili from scratch, and taking sandwiches and soups from home. 

The hardest thing to break is my long term Pepsi habit. I've been addicted to one (sometimes two, never three) Pepsi a day for the past twenty years.  Gross... when I think of all the sugar that adds up to, how many chemicals going through my body.  So with that vice, I've had to be creative.  I've had to buy sugar and caffine free diet Pepsi, which I loathe, and know isn't good for me at all, and when I *must* have the carbonated, sharp sensation, I grab one of the substitutes.  But I've only had about one every other day or so, and I think I actually had one Pepsi since the beginning of the year; even my kids are surprised! 

David is working about three hours away, and there just happens to be a ski hill exactly halfway between us, so this morning we both set out and met for a day on the slopes with my niece, her kids, my son and his girlfriend.  We had a really nice day, although we are both needing to get more exercise, or perhaps get younger?  LOL  Actually we kept up quite nicely.  It was really sad to say goodbye, I won't see David again until we meet up in Vancouver at the end of the month.

And... so... as you can see, there was nothing in this blog about babies.  Oops.  Now there is!  LOL  I guess it was just a break to spend the day not thinking about the upcoming IVF!


  1. Congrats on eating healthier and breaking that Pepsi habit. I had a terrible time of it when I decided to cut caffeine out of my diet. I have never drank soda but I LOVE coffee, so it took me a while to wean myself off of it! I think it was somewhat psychological, too, because weaning myself off that last 1/8th of a cup was the hardest part!

  2. It is good to have time not focused on babies. I have been trying my best to do that for the last few days. Realizing once I start the meds I am going to be obsessed so I should try and take a break from the madness while I still can. :)

  3. I have the same addiction except mine is Coke which makes sense since I am in the southeast! It is absolutely the only vice that I have and yet I can't break it. I would rather give up food. You're so right about all the sugar and calories adding up over the years. I definitely need to lose some weight and know that forfeiting soda would do amazing things. Baffles me that I can't do it. So..congratulations on your huge accomplishment because I know just how huge it really is.

  4. hey, i'm on a mission to lose this baby weight too and have also cut out soda from my diet. I have an affixation for diet cola, and man is that habit hard to crack!!!