my Self

My photo
Fort St John, BC, Canada
My husband, David, and I had been trying to have a baby since November of 2007. After 'letting things happen', we got the amazing news that we were pregnant in June of 2008. Sadly, that pregnancy ended at 9 weeks with a natural miscarriage. After two more chemical pregnancies, we turned to fertility treatments in 2009. That decision was a disaster, with lousy medical care and poor monitoring. In December of 2009, we made the huge decision to move onto IVF. Things fell into place like magic and we began treatment on January 15, 2010. After a blighted ovum in March, we did a successful FET in June, only to endure another blighted ovum in July. We kept up and underwent another IVF in September/October of 2010 with the arrival of our son, Brogan in July of 2011! After our lovely success (finally) we decided to undertake yet another IVF treatment and hope for a sibling for our little red headed boy. Well... so far it's worked. Our story continues below!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Samosas and Babies

I am now "pregnant until proven otherwise" or "PUPO" in the IVF/fertility world.  Today the doctors placed three beautiful embryos into my awaiting uterus and I couldn't be happier.  Although David wasn't able to be there with me, my long time girlfriend was there, and when she asked if she could come into the operating room with me, I was both surprised and deeply thankful. 

She donned the gown, cap and booties and shared one of the most amazing experiences of my life with me.  So much better when you have a loved one there to witness something so sacred.  She was actually a little choked up about it, as was I, of course.  

There were only two transfers this morning, so the clinic was lazy and dim, very peaceful... I hadn't drank enough water to fill my bladder.  Last time I did this I was cramping so bad from having to pee that my stomach was literally contracting and my back was enduring spasms.  Not. This. Time.  This time, I drank only until they told me it was just right, and then was able to endure the 15 minutes of flat on my back stillness without much difficulty.  

I fly home tomorrow evening.  This trip has been very, very different for me.  Life has been much more full these past few months, with my determination to stop obsessing about wanting a baby.  I've truly needed the time with my girlfriend more than I could ever have imagined.  Lately, my female relatives and I have had a bit of a regression (to put it mildly) in what were already strained and painful relationships.... mostly since my sister passed away.  

Being with a female friend, someone who loves my company, enjoys long deep conversations, depends on my opinion and is quick to give me hers.... A friend who has me in her home, insists on me taking her lovely, serene bedroom, but loves to come in with hot chai tea, just talking or reading together... whom I've been able to browse bookstores with and explore restaurants with, whom shared her secret recipes and wrote down mine, whom is so totally honest with me and whom cares so much for what I am experiencing and praying for...  Well... this two weeks has been deeply emotionally healing and enjoyable in more ways than I can count.  

Sisters are not just people you are related to.

Anyhow... along with the rebirth of a very treasured friendship, I am greatly anticipating another birth that will take place sometime in June or July of 2011... 

We transferred three gorgeous embryos... a 3AA, 3AB and a 2AB, with five more going to freeze.  That's one more than last cycle, so yeah for us!  The doctor started to do the whole "are you sure you want to transfer three" and I said "Yes, we ARE sure"... and that was that... he said he thought it was a good idea as well, although he did say there was a good chance of all three sticking.  We'll cross that bridge if we come to it.

Tomorrow brings a final lazy day of doing nothing in one of the most beautiful, progressive and vibrant cities in the world, followed by an early dinner and late trip to the airport.  Midnight will find me on home ground in my little northern town, sporting some amazing samosas, indian spices, gifts for my kids and one or two babies to be.

MMMmmmmm samosas.  


  1. I love this post. You are an excellent writer and give such vivid detail to things. Ever contemplated a book??? Not that you don't have enough to do! I'm happy that you were in such an amazing space with your friend, her house, etc this time around. Far better than a hotel room. I think our environment greatly matters as does our level of peace, emotional well being, etc. I am absolutely praying that this cycle is the one hon. (((Hugs)))

  2. Congrat's on a great Transfer and being PUPO!!! I'm so happy you had a much more fufilling experience this time with your environment, friend etc. I believe it makes a lot of difference! I pray this is your cycle and you bring home your baby(babies).

  3. Congrats on being PUPO! We did 3 as well, although mine were poor quality. I am so hopeful for you!! Will you be testing like last time?

  4. So happy you had three amazing quality embies!! That is wonderful news and sounds very promising. Just try to think positive sticky thoughts and enjoy PUPO...yay! When will you be testing? Can't wait for the posts and the pics of the pee sticks!! =) I am praying this is IT for your family!!!

  5. I am so happy for you and your 3 beautiful embryos. I can't wait to hear how amny take. You positivy and happiness are overwhelming.

  6. Thank you for your sweet comment on my blog! Best of luck to you as you go through this dreaded 2ww. Hoping to see GREAT news next time I visit!