If everything were equal, I'd rather wait until January. David feels the doctor is simply putting us into categories and piling statistics onto us to rush us, but David knows that he can't totally say that Doctor H is wrong. Do we take that chance? David feels that the break will do us good ... that it will improve our chances for conception and a healthy pregnancy.
As far as my feelings... well... I will have to go through everything no matter what month it is. It won't matter to me emotionally, I don't think. I've done pretty well so far. Pretty well. I am kind of confused and anxious about what to do. There have been so many big decisions, so much of our life dedicated to this journey, some hours I just want to let it all go. Just go back to being newly married and deliriously happy and renovating our home and working to lose the extra weight and not have this miscarriage trying to get pregnant persona attached to everything that I am.
On the other hand, I've got my entire life ahead of me to do that. I only have a couple of years available to make a baby. A couple of years that might be just as painful as the last couple of years, but the payoff, if there is one... will make every moment worth it.
So which way do I go... do I put my trust in my husband's instincts or my doctor's educated guess? I want to do whatever will bring me a baby.... that's all.