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My husband, David, and I had been trying to have a baby since November of 2007. After 'letting things happen', we got the amazing news that we were pregnant in June of 2008. Sadly, that pregnancy ended at 9 weeks with a natural miscarriage. After two more chemical pregnancies, we turned to fertility treatments in 2009. That decision was a disaster, with lousy medical care and poor monitoring. In December of 2009, we made the huge decision to move onto IVF. Things fell into place like magic and we began treatment on January 15, 2010. After a blighted ovum in March, we did a successful FET in June, only to endure another blighted ovum in July. We kept up and underwent another IVF in September/October of 2010 with the arrival of our son, Brogan in July of 2011! After our lovely success (finally) we decided to undertake yet another IVF treatment and hope for a sibling for our little red headed boy. Well... so far it's worked. Our story continues below!

Friday, February 19, 2010


While I'm used to the idea of being pregnant, I just can't wrap my brain around having a baby.  To me, the two don't seem to be different things.  I am doing everything I can to prevent a connection between me and the 'maybe-baby' growing inside me.  Once we see a heartbeat, then I can let myself start to believe a little bit.  Our chances of a live birth rise to nearly 90% after a heartbeat is detected.

My ultrasound was scheduled for March 18th, but I actually called the ultrasound lab and asked them to move it ahead.  I told the booking lady that I just can't go another two weeks not knowing if this is a pregnancy or not.  She's seen me come in for nearly a year for ultrasounds, for testing, for IUI's and I think she really took pity on me.  My ultrasound was moved up to March 9th.  Only 18 more days....

This is a neat chart where I got to see where my values are for my beta tests.  David is sure we're having twins, but I don't think the numbers are high enough, but I've been seeing a few twin pregnancies with numbers even lower than mine.  Who knows...

I was a bit worried about lack of symptoms, but I'm not anymore.  They come and go daily.  From round ligament pain, deep in my lower right abdomen/groin area, lower back ache, to very sore breasts to exhaustion and moodiness, I feel pretty crappy on a physical and mental level.  And I am really comforted and enjoying every moment of it. 


  1. Congratulations to you and hubby on your pregnancy!!!

    I was following you on the message board :)

    All the very best to you at that first and blessed u/s appt.

    You'll be in my prayers.


  2. I'm so glad you were able to get your u/s moved up. It's sad yet totally understandable why you (and others like us that has suffered losses) desperately need that u/s and heartbeat to really be able to just breathe and enjoy. Take it day by day hon and enjoy it. You are pregnant!

  3. Try not to worry about symptoms too much. The pg I had the least symptoms early on with was my only successful pg to date.

    I am glad you got her to move up your date. You do what you need to to feel more comfortable with the situation. It seems like this whole process has so much waiting involved.

  4. Awesome that you got your U/S moved up, you must be so anxious waiting to hear or see that heartbeat!
    Me and Kaydence are great, it was absolutley worth all the heartache it took to get here
    This is a link to my page: if it doesn't work I have no idea how to fix it :P
    One of these days (maybe friday?) I'll try to stop in and see you when I'm in town

  5. You never know, twin beta #s are tricky ... you very well might have 2 in there! Can't wait for your u/s. As comparison, my beta was 345 on 14DPO LOL -- so I think at least your embryos didn't split into identicals! =)

  6. Oh my gosh! Congratulations! I am soooo happy for you! I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. :)